little fucker

sometimes in life i'll come across some extraordinarily fucked up people that i would just love to project the full force of my hatred upon, but as i am such a kind and lovely person, i always tried to find some redemption for them.

i used to have this belief that a person couldn't really be that bad as long as there was some semblance of goodness within them.

most times this really wasn't easy to see, so what i would use to judge their hidden goodness is through their ability to love and be loved, because i don't think anyone could love a truly detestable person.

it could be their spouse, children, parents, pets, whatever. as long as they had some love in them, or had someone who loved them, it was enough for me to continue treating them like a normal person.

i do not feel it is necessary to treat a truly fucked up person the same way as i treat others. they deserve something special.

anyway recent events had me thinking, isn't it worse that a person who has goodness within him chooses to act in such detestable ways? shouldn't i hate him more instead of one who is truly fucked up, not by choice but because that's just the way he is?

i'm still trying to decide.